Have I really Been Through It all?

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Have I been through it all????

Everyone has a moment in Life.... Where you look up and say, I have been through so much... People tend to think others couldn't imagine the things they've been through. In most cases they push away the one's that care the most. Just by having that feeling!! Truth be told half of the time they don't even know what their doing... It becomes this strong defense against the one's that truly care...

Question: If all your Life everyone you ever loved, hurted you. Then what do you think your natural reaction would be towards the one that comes along & says "I'm different , I really Love You"?

Some would try to believe in you, & give you the benefit of the dought.
While others would just say it. Yet their thoughts would resort to its natural reaction. This can be a good thing or bad. The good would be as the person that's been hurt their mind, body, & spirit. Would be prepared for what ever pain that could be placed upon them. The bad thing is you could run away, the very one that cares authentically .

That one person that you run away could lead you to run into God knows how many bad cases.

Question: Everyone has had one or two good people in their life. How many bad cases did you run into before you got that one???
Right.....
~ So we should try our best to watch even in heartache. Believe Y. when I say " Love is Pain"...

These are thing we can't change....

However what about the family issues we encounter that make true impact on our lives.
Family is essential. Even when were hurt, confused & not sure what road to take. Family plays a true role in a lot of the outlooks you have on life....

I know.

Y. is here yaLL . Im authentic~

You know as you all look at my pictures & read this blog I want to know can you see this.....


At the age of 14, the beginning of the end of my Junior High years. My "DADDY" was sent to be with the Heavens.... My daddy was my heart . & from the moment I found out my he was gone, I have felt a missing piece of me. I always said my father could never be referred to as a dad. I always seen it like this; A father is the man on your birth certificate, a dad is someone who picks you up every weekend & buy you a pair of shoes, then sends you on your way, a DADDY is someones thats been their just as much as mother.

Thats at the childs doctor appts, that's there when their sick. A daddy is at your school, just as consider as a mother should be. Note I may have had a mom that wasnt always whole, yet she was there when I needed her. She here NOW & I love her more & more everyday... She's all I got!! & though sometimes I think about when she wasnt there.

I turn to God to make sure he know's I know I've been blessed since the beginning...God sent me a daddy RIP Oct 31st 01.... & I thanked him everyday....& still do!! I had something that others never had a chance to even know or see. & if it was for only 14 yrs of 21 in going on this earth. THANK YOU~

I may not have had all the things others have had easily & thrown away...

Yet I'm a high school graduate, an aspiring model, as well as a writer.

SO have we really been through it all????
Or have we just been through something?